Comments on: I’ll Fly Away

By: Misty

Misty — Mon, 16 Nov 2009 20:55:25 +0000

I linked here from Holy Experience am I am so grateful to have found your site. This post brought me to tears and means more than you know. Thanks for sharing.

By: Lori

Lori — Wed, 11 Jul 2007 18:13:56 +0000

I’m so sorry. I hate to say it, but I can commiserate with the feelings you expressed in this post. My mother has been deceased for 3 ? years, but really, the essence of her motherhood has been gone for most of my life. It’s so tricky to think about what could have/should have been and it makes me sad. I just hope I do a better job with my own children.

By: Julie from Seeking The Old Paths

Julie from Seeking The Old Paths — Sun, 01 Jul 2007 00:02:24 +0000

Having never lost a Momma, I still have this same feeling from time to time. I’d love to say that it is satisfied for me in Father’s lap, but alas, even that peace is elusive at times. Not because of Him of course…
Oh, how I ache for you and your heart that is so raw!
Father, please comfort Firefly…allow her to find this very real need met, someway, somehow…in You..because You will never leave.

By: Ashli

Ashli — Thu, 14 Jun 2007 21:55:53 +0000

My mom has been mentally ill for a while and while she was raising me things were all over the place. Sometimes life hurts so much I feel I need exactly your description, of being held and taken care of. I honestly don’t know how to be a mother and I want to be cared for like that, yet I have five children who need a mother. Your site is very beautiful, like the mother I wish I could be.

By: Antoinette

Antoinette — Sat, 02 Jun 2007 17:32:32 +0000

What a beautiful post.
I think it is a blessing because how many of us have “complicated” relationships with our mother?
We lover her, yet we struggle with her. With her acceptance of us, and with our decisions in life.
It really is a complicated relationship, and your grieving blog spoke so loudly to me.
You have a positively beautiful blog.
Antoinette

By: Yielded

Yielded — Wed, 23 May 2007 22:11:13 +0000

I hope it’s okay to say that I understand how you feel.
My mom died so soon after I was brought to this world, and as a child I envied all the other kids I know. My friends were not allowed to complain about their moms, otherwise they’d hear from me.
Now, I just treasure my relationship with my daughters, and am thankful to God everyday that I could be the “mommy”.
What a beautiful post.

By: Accidental Poet

Accidental Poet — Sun, 13 May 2007 04:21:32 +0000

I read this post today, coming over from Wittingshire, and first of all, it resonated with me. When I was away at school, and I’d get sick, I’d whine “I want my mommy!” and then I’d think about my own personal mother and look at my room-mate and say “Wait. Maybe I want YOUR mother.”
I think the thing about death is …it’s so final. I know that sounds obvious, but what I mean is – there’s no more potential for change. There’s no more chance for the great Redeemer to work His magic in your relationship, and have your mother be who you need a mother to be.
Maybe that’s what you’re grieving? The loss of potential?
Praying for you.
Susan

By: cb

cb — Sun, 13 May 2007 03:26:52 +0000

Tomorrow’s Mother’s Day and that makes it worse. My mom has been gone for a little over one year. I still absently pick up the phone to call her. The tantrum events seem to occur at random, unforseen times. It scares me that I’m the next one; the next responsible adult, the next person to be depended on, the next person in line for old age and…death. My idealistic, youthfulness was instantly removed from my soul. I mourn for that carefree existance. I want it to rock me and hold me and take me back to innocence. In my “moments”, I pray for God’s peace to flood my soul and He always provides.

By: Mary Grace

Mary Grace — Fri, 11 May 2007 19:44:23 +0000

Oh, dear … an absolute window into what I know I will feel like when my own dear, misled mother passes. My heart mourns for you. May you find peace.

By: Donna-Jean

Donna-Jean — Wed, 02 May 2007 13:20:23 +0000

Praying for you, Firefly. (four words, but they say a lot.)
Your poignant post got me thinking, too – am I that kind of mommy to my children? I sometimes look at myself through them, and wonder, would I want myself as a mom?
Pondering, praying.