Comments on: Out of the Box http://dappledthings.me/blog/photography/out-of-the-box/ GLORY be to God for dappled things... Wed, 20 Jan 2010 15:37:06 +0000 hourly 1 http://wordpress.org/?v=3.3 By: Bob http://dappledthings.me/blog/photography/out-of-the-box/comment-page-1/#comment-39 Bob Tue, 08 Feb 2005 19:49:54 +0000 http://dappledthings.me/blog/?p=162#comment-39 I have essentially no memories from before five years of age, and my memories from before age ten are rather fuzzy and incomplete. For someone as obsessed with reminiscence as I sometimes am, this is a source of frustration and regret. But I don't think the problem is that I've *forgotten* my childhood; rather, it's that I wasn't paying attention to begin with. I do remember stuff from those early years, but most of it is connected with the imaginary worlds where I spent most of my time, not with reality. Sort of the opposite of your problem: rather than being assaulted by an overwhelming flood of sensation, I was too busy with my own fantasies to even notice what was around me. I often wonder whether Laura is paying attention more than I was, and I'm pretty sure she is. This often gives me the odd feeling that the grown-up future Laura is watching over my shoulder as I create her memories. I have essentially no memories from before five years of age, and my memories from before age ten are rather fuzzy and incomplete. For someone as obsessed with reminiscence as I sometimes am, this is a source of frustration and regret.
But I don’t think the problem is that I’ve *forgotten* my childhood; rather, it’s that I wasn’t paying attention to begin with. I do remember stuff from those early years, but most of it is connected with the imaginary worlds where I spent most of my time, not with reality. Sort of the opposite of your problem: rather than being assaulted by an overwhelming flood of sensation, I was too busy with my own fantasies to even notice what was around me.
I often wonder whether Laura is paying attention more than I was, and I’m pretty sure she is. This often gives me the odd feeling that the grown-up future Laura is watching over my shoulder as I create her memories.

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